I.
I pray for strength
Calm, for my nerves
To wash away
II.
This building has become all too familiar
It fills me with fear
Brings me to the brink of tears
Has made me feel like a criminal
And makes me question everything
Down to my identity
Who am I to you
But a receipt, alien number
Lost within a cracked system
With an endless paper trail
That refuses to mesh up
With who I truly am
Who am I to you when you look me in the eye
I'll tell you
I am a person with a heartbeat
I am a person that wants to be known
Never forgotten or worst of all
Left behind
I am a person
Please do not break me down into nothingness
III.
I sit and wait for my name to be called
Debate whether or not to gravitate
To the empty chairs to my right
Where the chatter is nonexistent
My lawyer tries to prepare me
For what's to come
I can tell he is nervous as I am
I debate on asking my friend
To pray, but decide against it
I have a feeling it’s already happening
IV.
My name is called I turn around
To an intimidating man
I start to walk as the nerves build
And I know this is it
I sit and I wait
Countdown every question and take a deep breath
Phase one, two and three I pass
I am almost there this Nightmare
Will soon be over
But there is a glitch
In the interview
He doesn’t understand
Why I voted
He doesn’t understand
The name change
He doesn’t understand
The LAW
And he walks out
I sit and I wait
On the verge of tears
And wonder why am I
The only one that understands my case
He walks back in
And says something
I don’t want to hear
We are going to have to look
Further into this, we have to do it the legal way
I can’t approve or deny your Naturalization of Citizenship
Today
V.
I walk out devastated
Chatter surrounds me
In the elevator, garage as the car door opens
As we drive away from this place
It’s hard to breathe
Because I know the Nightmare continues
And it is far from over
(4.29.15)
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